Marriage

Let me start this by saying I'm sorry it's been a while since I've posted....I've started an online class and we adopted a puppy and well.....it's been busy

Secondly let me say...I LOVE being married.....I really do - best decision I've ever made....and I love it so much because I love who I chose to marry. I really am the lucky one. I'm sitting here on my day off playing on Pintefest and doing a lot nothing (best day off) and I'm pinning a lot of quotes and such related to marriage....because its awesome ;) - lol. Then I saw a pin that someone I follow pinned that said something along the lines of "why don't you text your husband how you feel instead of posting it on Facebook" 

1. I do text my husband or call him to see how his day is going to tell him I love him....and he does the same
2. I post about my husband and our marriage on Facebook,because if I'm not going to brag about him or our marriage (yes we have our spats and irritating moments but we really work well together) than who is?

It's part of my job as a wife to make sure I build my husband up in confidence, love, support and prayer. It's might job to make sure he always knows I love him. I don't always post it on Facebook - but sometimes I do - because it's a joyous thing. I'm spending my .life with my best friend - people post things about their best friend all the time - mine is my spouse :)

I'm not sure if I should have really felt - I suppose it was hurt that I felt - about the pinned quote but I just couldn't get past it.  I think my husband is awesome- because he really is. He does amazing things for me and our "family". He's always thinking of others and considering their feelings   I guess if people don't like seeing me post about him then they can unfriend me....but I wonder how much better they would feel if they boasted about their spouse a little more. 


Just my ramble and rant for the day!  Looking forward to this 3 day weekend with my husband :). Vacation in 2 weeks!!!! YAHOO :)

The McMahans 

Clean Eating

Justin and I have embarked on a clean eating journey.  We did our first shopping trip a couple of nights to go and we are broke....not really,but we've never had a grocery bill that high. I suppose it's all worth it in the end. Today is starting day 2 yesterday wasn't too bad but it's only the beginning. I've started waking up at 5:00am to cook a breakfast and get our lunches ready. The only good part of getting up that early is it brings Justin and I to the breakfast table together - that is a refreshing start to the day :)

Keep looking for more updates on our adventures and our clean eating eating journey

The McMahan's

True Love is Appreciative

In church today Pastor mentioned that true love is appreciative....what a great word to explain love. I've touched on this before and have probably said it a million times but my main goal in my marriage is for Justin to never doubt that I love him.....my second goal.....that Justin might  get a small glimpse into how much I appreciate him. I will never fully be able to express my appreciation for him....it's too abundant. 

I remember at my wedding shower my mother in law bawling and then hugging me as I cried thanking her for raising such a wonderful man......all by herself. You see I came from a very hurtful and broken past......some very happy moments and some of the darkest moments I never thought I would ever imagine. I was so bruised and scarred and torn, I had no self esteem and I was a mess.....a broken mess. Justin didn't care.....ok I'm not sure how to phrase that correctly because he cared......but he didn't judge me by my past....the things I went through. He loved me (and still does) because I survived....because even though I was worn and at complete rock bottom....I pushed on another day.....maybe a small part of me knew it would end with him. 

He has become my rock, my safe place and my happiness.  He has boost my self esteem, he has believed in me so much that I believe in myself again. He makes me laugh and allows me to cry when I need to. One of my co-workers said to me the other day "I'm just gonna throw this out there but I really think you love your husband."  I love it because I want everyone to know how much I love my husband. 

Tracy Byrd says it perfectly in 'Keeper of the Stars' when he says "there really are no words to show my gratitude". So true there are no words but I am so thankful to God for Justin. 

Sometimes I make myself laugh

If you know me well.....none of this will come as a surprise......if you don't know me well and you haven't realized this from the first two posts.......I stress myself out....A LOT. I work myself up so bad it makes me sick.....I can't sleep, all I want is to eat chocolate, anxiety kicks into overdrive. I do all of this without fully thinking through every situation.....I'm a girl that's my excuse.  

BUT.....here is the good news....JUSTIN AND I ARE NOT MOVING!!!!!!  Woooo feels good to say that. So much stress and weight was on my shoulders thinking about finding a place to move, moving, either driving an hour back and forth to work, paying extra gas, trying to meet new people.....my anxiety medicine doesn't cover all of that.

After much discussion Justin and I decided that will all things considered it would be much easier and make more sense for us to stay at our house in Alex. I am so excited.....I was not selfish.....I promise. I was coming to terms with leaving Aspire and actually even applied for a job in Lafayette......but my husband is so sweet and logically talked everything through with me. He is trading in his truck for a fuel efficient car and when he has to be on a train will make the drive. 

We make a good team....we really do....we are both willing to make sacrifices and compromise.....but in the end we make it work for the best. Looking back on these last few days I am laughing because I was a nut case.....seriously. My emotions were everywhere and I was so worked up.....for NOTHING 

Like I said life is exciting for us McMahan's and now I get to blog about all the exciting remodels and updates we will be doing to our house :)

Change

I'm going to be honest.......I HATE change.....despise it....makes me gag......throws me into a panic attack.....absolutely hate change.  When I get into schedule or a "groove" I want it to stay that way - not doing anything different. But apparently life doesn't work the way I want it to. As lots and lots of changes are occurring and will continue to occur for the next few months. 

I get scared for change - afraid I will fail - afraid it won't end good - and even afraid it will be even better than I could imagine (weird that that can be scary) I'm not ready for change. I'm not ready to start over. 

A friend of mine posted this picture on Facebook and well.....I guess it's what I needed to read today

My feelings are so jumbled.....like I said like is getting so exciting......but life is also getting scary - ha :)

Stay tuned.....more of my stress....more of my confusion.....more of my anxiety......more of our changes......and more of the exciting adventures for us :)

Greetings

Greetings - my first post on this new blog! So many of my Facebook friends have family,blogs and they are so fun to read I decided I would keep ........or at least attempt to keep one of my own. It seems like so much is always going on for Justin and I and honestly, I don't care how exciting the news is I sometimes get tired of repeating stores. This might make that easier :)

Our current state......or might current state is stressed and overwhelmed.......to the point I now have meds for stress/anxiety induced headaches......lovely I know :). I'm transitioning into a new role at work....which made my caseload jump and my daily schedule get even bigger. But my clients (most of them) are worth it :). I enjoy what I do and days like today I'm thankful for a gym membership with nice treadmills!

Justin's life is exciting right now. He is the testing process for a new job :). He's had the offer handed and he has accepted now the fun testing so he can get an official start date. We prayed hard for a new opportunity and a door has opened. A part of me is still nervous something won't pan out....but right now it's all good :). And with this job retirement looks like a definite possibility - 25 and I'm already ready for retirement!!  Unfortunately with this job it looks as though we may be moving a little closer to Lafayette (he job) and a little further from Anderson (my job) - adding more stress to my day as financially I'm going crazy trying to play around with our budget to find something we can afford.

Thankfully John 16:33 reminds me "In this world you will have trouble. But take heart for,I have overcome the world". There will be light at the end of what seems like this very long tunnel

Life is getting exciting for us McMahans :)